I was hoping no one would realise that i havent been blogging much but my cousin apparently did and she asked me about it. Hur i guess i just am not in the mood to write. I barely even have enough time to sit back and relax after a day's work and within that 3hours, i still need to squeeze in the blogging part? Maybe cos i'm starting to view blogging as a chore, since i either write something when i'm bitter, or when i'm happy. Lately i havent been feeling either way. Well i'm just being me. I usually dont feel anything. Lol. I should probably give myself a middle name. Chewy Cold Chung. Or Chewy Emotionless Chung. Cool nya.

What do people usually blog about? Something they see and which register enough for them to spend time describing? How about i launch into a story about how i saw this dead squirrel on the road the day before? I was walking on the pavement when something caught my eye and it was a horrible sight. The poor little thing was lying on its side, slightly curled up with traces of blood next to it on the surface of the road. And i was ashamed that this idea of taking a picture even crossed my mind at that moment when i should be consumed with disgust or compassion or whatever it was appropriate to feel. So here I am paying tribute to the poor squirrel which sacrificed unnecessarily due to jaywalking. I mean it's impossible for the driver to notice it right? So we probably cannot prosecute the human. Hmm.

Anyway I was having this conversation with my colleague this evening and she was telling me that she used to teach in this particular primary school whose name i recognised, so i nodded. She asked me how i knew the school and i told her i had a friend who transferred there for its gifted program. Then i started thinking about this friend. We were classmates in primary 2, and we became the best of friends, attending each other's birthday parties and all. Then we went to different classes in primary 3 and she finally transferred in primary 4, but we kept in touch through letters all the way till secondary 2? I was kinda amazed at myself, and at our friendship. Well we're no longer talking to each other, but it is still a wonderful memory, i guess. I dont even remember who stopped writing first. Was it me? Maybe it was me. Yea probably. That's definitely the result of my procrastination. Missing the best timing and stuff, and then forgetting about it altogether just cos it felt weird to start now. Smirks. Perhaps I should start writing again ne? What should i start with? "Hi XXX, i suddenly thought of you when my colleague mentioned your primary school and i thought i should apologise for sending this letter eight years late. Forgive me?" Rights.

Life is so boring now i've nothing interesting to say. I dont have any excuse not to blog cos i'm not busy with exams like everyone is, but the thing about me is that blogging is a distraction. When i want to avoid reality, i blog. When i'm dealing with reality, i blog less often. But now, i'm simply not thinking, not feeling. There's nothing to look forward to. I dont even have an eyecandy at the office. Cue *roll eyes*. How did i even get into a station whose youngest employee is 30 years old? Lol but that's actually quite funny, especially since it came out from my boss's mouth. Sighs. Where's the 桃花运 rabbits r supposed to be having? I see everyone struck by it (whether they want it or not), just not me. Geh. Maybe my mom remembered my birth year wrongly huh. HAHAHAHA. Maaaybe. I told you i'm optimistic in my own warped way. Why doesnt anyone ever believe me? Tsk
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